It's hell of a week. I got nightmares, dreams... or must these be premonitions? I hope so. But tomorrow, everything of these will end already. All questions will be asked. The dreams, nightmares will be clarified. Will it remain as nightmare, dream or is it really a premonition.
But the nervousness continues to haunt me even at this very last day. I know there's nothing to worry about because I control nothing. It's all up to God's plan. Whatever will be the result tomorrow, He always has a plan for me.
I am almost done with my novena, today is my 8th day and tomorrow will be the 9th and will be the day. I don't know but I just could not explain what I am really feeling right now. I mean this is my future. I've dedicated my whole 4 years for this. I know I did everything back then during the review and the actual board exam. But still there are so many "what ifs" and "if only" rumbling inside my mind.
But tomorrow is indeed the day. In fact, I deactivated my facebook to lessen my anxiety. That way my batchmates and friends would forget me for the meantime. Because what I was thinking is they might look for my name too. And the pressure it could give me is too much.
I guess I will just have to trust the Lord. I believe. Amen!
0 comments:
Post a Comment